such a true book that i can honestly relate to and got me to start biting my lip all the time and i read it over a year ago :) haha.
also a sad book about another woman teen going through hard times. it was so descriptive i blacked out every time the teenager cut herself. :P eep but it was awe inspiring.
okay nevermind im bored already.
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so low
And you let me down
listen to her.. she's genious :)
her music inspires me to go take pictures. which lately im obbsessed with wanting to do. so i sit here writing about it or editing old pics. i hate myspace and facebook for not alowing me to upload my pictures these days because therye too big. its stupid really. also listen to the genious of The Age of Rockets... or the Weepies. i dontknow i love it all haha. i need a good cup of tea on either a blizzard day or a Fall evening.
bc its looking like a shitty mudslush winter outside. :(
Ever feel so lost...
that everything you knew as a child[makes more sense than everything you know right now?]
I see everything with heinsight and sorrow. i feel confused. i know who i am. but lately my actions dont reflect who i've been before hanging out with ppl that do drugs. I guess it became so normal, it became a part of me. Not for too long. but what is too long? i want to be free. i want so much but i feel i've fucked myself over a bit too much lately thinking that this is what i want, but its not. and i'm too pig headed to tell anyone. normally i tell everyone how it is. i confront ppl. i guess i'm just waiting for someone to confront me. but right now i think i need to confront myself and tell ppl how it is. how i should be. how i'm going to be. and stick to it. i can go to a party and just be good enough being myself i dont need that stuff i never did i dont know why i ever did it. i can carry on conversations without talking about drugs, my friends cant. i guess i've just started this blog for a huge Vent fest. but thats only for awhile to remind myself on paper (illiterally) what i want. but after all this finding out whats real is done and finished i'll reveal the other side of myself on here, the artistic side :)
these 2 i love
and the rest i actually took :)
